Surving 20 years and counting on planet earth
Yep, just celebrated my 20th birthday. I think now, and later today, I’ll give myself what I really need, time to think. lol
Cleaning up
Last night, I cleaned my room, today, cleaning my itunes, then my homework out, then later tonight laundry. I think today and tomorrow, I’m just going to spend cleaning up myself, I need to. Feels good to have a clean room. :)
Inactivity
Things have been winding down from school, and it feels like it’s been forever since I really tumbled, just dealing with lots lately, classes winding down, almost time to go home, stress from the world, it’s been hard to keep up with my tumblr. But Going to try and get back to some things, draw some pictures, post things, it’s just been rough waters, and I know more are ahead, but got to keep smiling. Because, the good outways the bad. And needn’t worry about seeing friends before I leave, but enjoy the time I spend with them.
Day 9
Almost caught up.
PS-On this day (yesterday) was my 16 month anniversary, and just wanna say, I love you babe, so much, happy 16 months. :)
How my future will be.
Simply put, finding more about myself, and being happy. Maybe have a family getting started, and settling down. I don’t really know where I’m headed but the wind will take me the way I need to, just as it always has.
Day 8
2 days behind!
I have two I’d like to discuss.
The first, I will only say this, March 1st, I made someone so happy, and honestly, it was an amazing moment. Seeing I made someone that happy was unspeakable, all I could do was sit there and smile.
The second most recent one, would be the past Saturday, yep my date night. It was nice just spending an entire day out with my girl friend. It made me sad that we don’t get to do all the stuff we used to, but even though, just everything showed how strong of a bond we have. And thats an amazing thing, this bond we’ve built, later that night, alone in my room, I thought in my head, and found out wat it meant to be happy. I looked back and thought back to when I was 10 years old, and I thought I was proud of what I’ve become, where I’m heading and everything I’ve accomplished. Times may be rough, but I know, all the wounds I have become scars, and my body toughens from the pain, growing stronger day by day. And you know, that makes me happy with life. I’ve got an amazing friend here at UT, my best friend back home, my family, my tumblr buddies. And I’ve got the most astounding girlfriend, who I love with all my heart, I really don’t see why anything couldn’t be better, yeah my life is filled with stress, and even sometimes it’s hard to move, but I’m not alone, the journey is far from over, and i’ve got the strength to keep moving along my path and find where I’m supposed to go.
Day 7 this helped me realise the cosmos are right!!!!
3 days behind. lol
I am a Taurus.
Taurus Strength Keywords:
- Dependable
- Persistent
- Loyal
- Patient
- Generous
Taurus Weakness Keywords:
- Stubborn
- Laziness
- Possessive
- Materialistic
- Self-indulging
And You know, copying that from a web site I’d have to say, that why yes, I fit the bill in strenghts and weaknesses exactly. XD
“They are perfectly fine on being alone, this way things get done they way they want them to be done. Taurus is not a follower, but they are not the brave one either. Taurus is perfectly independent. With their perseverance, they get things done and can do quite well for themselves.” A philiosophy I kinda hold about my self. XD Almost on the dot.
“A Taurus is an excellent friend. Taurus has few close friends as opposed to many acquaintances. The few people they hold dear to them are guarded and protected. Their friends are treated like family and they are fiercely loyal and dependable. Taurus loves to be the host or hostess. Although not a total social butterfly, they can be shy around strangers, the people who Taurus let into their lives are lavishly catered to when Taurus decides to throw a party, they decorate and present everything lavishly. Taurus will always pamper themselves and their close group of friends.” Did I write this entry, because once again, this is kinda me on the dot. O.o
“Taurus is a strong business person. Taurus is the one who has immense perseverance, even when others have given up, the Taurus rages on. They have a knack for finance and their financial advice is prized.” Im a supply chain management and econ major, O.O it’s like the cosmos fit me.
“Taurus are deeply sensitive, the slightest comment or negative remark will be taken personally and they can easily get offended or hurt. Their stubborn streak results in laziness.” I am sensitive and can be lazy. XD
“Taurus are not fond of change. In fact, is change is imminent, they get very nervous and worried. They do not like anything new because anything new is unknown and Taurus fears the unknown. Taurus needs order in their lives and when they do not have order, they get very anxious. Taurus will cut themselves off from the unfamiliar in order to avoid the feelings of insecurity that arise when new experiences and situations are present. Taurus do not express their feelings openly and their inner self is contained and secretive. Many people do not know how sensitive Taurus really is, they hide it well. As a result, they are often emotionally hurt when the wrong things are said, they take things too personally sometimes. Taurus avoids talking about their emotions and many people never really know how they feel.” That does discribe a lot, I have trouble letting go, and always cut my self off when things get rough to try and go back to the basics… Wow, this is really getting me…
“The Taurus man is very sensible, he is not the man to sweep you off your feet. He is practical and down to earth. He wants a high quality woman, not a woman for one night. He will survey cautiously before he makes his approach. He is very patient when it comes to a relationship. He will survey the situation and make sure the woman has something to offer him, before he offers himself. Taurus man is a romantic man, he will put his woman on a pedestal, protect her and cherish her. Once he has chosen his woman, he will be very generous, loyal and faithful. He is not a boring man, but he is not for the woman who craves adventure and excitement. Taurus man is for the woman who craves stability and comfort, he is an incredible provider and is a very fine choice as a partner for the right woman. He is in it for the long haul so commitment is no problem for this man.” I think this is how I treat my girl friend.
http://zodiac-signs-astrology.com/zodiac-signs/taurus.htm
So in sumation, I really think I fit my zodiac sign from all the stuff I saw. If more intrested read more. Talks about the my sexuality a bit too on that site. XD
Day 6
I’m really behind, exlpain later. :P
30 Interesting Facts-
- I’m terrified of Tornadoes.
- I’ve been hit by a car in the sixth grade
- I used to be a Film Major, now Supply Chain Management and Economics,
- I have trouble letting go of things
- I just got a smartphone. lol
- My favorite food is crackers and cheese, or mac and cheese
- I’m Italian
- I can speak 3 and 1/2 languages
- I cried watching Godzilla vs. Destroyah (Nerd excerpt)
- My favorite Ultraman is Ultraman Ace
- I beleive that everything happens for a reason, no matter how good, or bad, because fate will always steer you in the right direction
- I have a nasty case of insomnia
- I’m terrible with names
- I can cook a mean dish
- I love cooking too
- I’m a romantic and all ways, shapes and forms
- I’m happy to say I kissed my girl friend during one of the most romantic scene in titanic, and I felt like the king of the world. ;)
- I have an obsession with birds
- I am college. :P
- Favorite Mario character is Wario.
- I’m not the same person I was before August 2010
- I am not a hipster!
- My two favorite kinds of movies are cult classics and documentaries
- I have never seen star wars
- Favorite kaiju is Gigan
- I’ve never been to a real beach
- I’ve once won $500
- I sleep with a charizard plushie and a sperm plushie
- I love paranormal stuff
- Is very forgetful
A night full of tears
So today, I took my girlfriend out, we went and had a nice dinner at olive garden, hung around best buy the two of us, went and saw titanic with her, then got ice cream, then just went back to her house. I’m not going to lie, watching the movie, I had to struggle to hold back tears. It was an amazing day to say the least. I regret having to leave her house. The car ride home, I started to tear up. It’s something I needed. I never truly understand why people say not to cry. It’s something that makes us human, it’s something that symbolizes strength, you’re willingness to feel pain, sorrow, happiness, whatever those tears are. Even as I type this message, I’m still shedding tears. I’m laughing, feeling sad, smile, feeling angry. I’m a stupid romantic. :’) All I can think right now is how i wish I could be holding your hand, feeling your heart against my chest, and look into those emerald green eyes. <3
Day 5
A little late but…
A time I thought about ending my own life….
This one is a really dark one, it was around the time my cousin was murdered, and it felt like everything was falling apart. I don’t really wanna go into much detail, but I will say, that’s kinda when Ultraman and Kaiju saved my life and gave me hope. Funny how something like that can really help you with life.
